Today is one of those days. The type of day where you’re constantly fretting over something. Money is my number one thing right now. Living in a house where the rent is almost more than I can afford is giving me a constant anxiety attack. I live with my sister right now, and our entire situation is very much up in the air.
So as I sit here (at work) worrying, crying and having an anxiety attack about money, my mom calls. Her main point – count my blessings. Write down my blessings. There is so much more to be thankful for than there is to worry about. Everything seems really bleak when money is tight. When money is tight it causes us to worry about everything, and I mean everything – like your entire life as a whole.
So I took a 10 minute break from doing the oh-so exciting job of bank statement reconciliations to write down my blessings.
- My family – they are ALWAYS there for me no matter what.
- My boyfriend – he took my car yesterday to get the tires balanced and rotated and an alignment done. I asked him how much I owed him and he would not let me pay. My boyfriend is a Senior Airman in the Air Force (God Bless Our Troops!) and works as a fire-fighter. His financial situation is considerably more stable than my own. Not saying he makes bank, if you know anyone in the military they can tell you that they most certainly do not. However, he has a relatively low-rent living situation and no car payment as of right now. Those things go a long way.
- My job – I am thankful and blessed to be working full time. Is it at the pay grade I would prefer? Absolutely not. But there is stability and mobility within the organization and I am blessed to be a part of a company that puts the employees and their families first.
After I listed out three solid blessings in my life, I cracked open one of my favorite devotional books called Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence by Sarah Young. (You can snag it here Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence, I highly recommend it!) And to my wonderful surprise, today’s topic, “Come to Me and Rest.” How fitting. And I remembered, Jesus is begging us to come to him when we are having a rough day or are especially anxious. He is begging us to “slow down and cling tightly to My hand. I am teaching you a difficult lesson, learned only by hardship.”
When you’re having days like mine, just remember that Jesus is calling for you. He wants you to come to him with your worries, your doubts and your anxieties. With Him you will find Peace, but only if you give your worries over to Him. And sometimes you have to say it out loud. So if you’re reading this, read this out loud “Lord, please take these worries from me. Allow me to focus on the blessings you have given me and continue to give me.”
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” Matthew 11:28-29